today's thoughts.

desperation.

your gay boyfriend. ha…ha….

hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha….

ha. 

Forgiveness.

Whether it’s tomorrow, or a decade from now, we will find it in ourselves to forgive. 

We seek others for forgiveness so easily but sometimes giving… isn’t just as easy.

Someday, sometime, today, I found it in me. 

I forgive.

<3

We’re not kids anymore.

Darling, don’t waste time dreaming fairytale endings and chasing rainbows and all sorts. After all, this life is only temporary.

So why don’t you quit fantasizing and start thinking of what’s real and what’s permanent. For all you know it could be tomorrow and all you could ever think of then is how sorry you are for dreaming sweet dreams and not working on the permanent.

Disney Fairy Tale Weddings by Alfred Angelo

kissingmachine:

gigglymexicans:

Snow White

Cinderella

Ariel

Sleeping Beauty

Tiana

Belle

Jasmine

i love Tiana’s. lovely~

(Source: odair-it-is, via badass-nephilim)

We’re all grown up now.

I’ve come to terms that my life as a kid with no responsibilities has passed. I’ve come to terms that my life as a young adult, responsible for moulding my own future, has begun.

Gone are the days where I choose just to sleep in all day and mornings where I say “hmmm, i’m too lazy to go to school today” despite knowing very well that attendance IS compulsory. Now, lectures are barely compulsory yet I drag myself out of bed every morning without having anyone to wake me up just to go to uni.

What has changed? you ask me. Life has changed. I start to grow up and reality has hit. The simple reality that what you do reflects upon your future, some day…later in life.

Do I still wish I could still sleep in bed all day? Hell yes but that doesn’t mean I can. So here I am, aged nineteen, trying to make the best out of what I have now.

xx

like a kid all over again.

Christmas brings the kid in me to life. Christmas, is just pure joy. It has been two years and now i’m finally back to where i’ve been wanting to go the most: WINTER FRIGGIN WONDERLAND!

Such joy it brings to see my fairytale come to life. This year’s winter wonderland is definitely the biggest and most amazing winter wonderland to date. It brings me back to the good(and bad) old days at the same place, same time of the year. Mulled wine, hot beer, crazy ass rides and kids, both young and old just so drawn in its wonders.

Ahhh i love the christmas season :)

But if you ask me, if I wished for things to have stayed the same… a part of me says I do.

Ramadhan’s blessings.

As Ramadhan is approaching its end, nights are no longer peacefully quiet. Both young and old parade in their lawns with crackling fire crackers and poppers. Others abandon mosques to rush and liven up shopping malls and supermarkets in preparation for the more ‘eventful’ Hari Raya.

I watch and wonder, how one could neglect the last few nights of the holy month of Ramadhan when this is the time when forgiveness and blessings are at its most abundance. It saddens me deeply realising how we look forward to celebrating Hari Raya when we should be looking forward more towards the last ten days of Ramadhan, Lailatul Qadar.

It doesn’t take a food fiesta or amazingly elaborate clothings or brightly lit houses to celebrate life and its blessings. If we could just spend a little more time, a little while longer, just to appreciate every second of the last ten days of Ramadhan, Lailatul Qadar… Insyallah.

This Ramadhan has been amazing. It has taught me alot of things, most importantly, it has taught me that blessings don’t all come exactly as I hoped for, but it will come, just in unexpected ways. It has taught me that patience is the essence of all wishes.

Now, I just hope that all things will be fine, and that includes you. :)

guilt.

looking back, all i’ve ever looked forward to was for this moment to come. well the moment’s here.. just, not in the way i had expected. i would’ve been ecstatic, over the moon happy, delighted to say the least that i’d be leaving the country. now i’m just wishing that every ticking second would last longer and i’d think of the weight of expectations i’d still have to carry, one heavier than before, with me along with this journey.

it’s the best birthday gift i could ever think of. my parents have been supporting and amazing beyond words, MasyaAllah. it brings me to tears seeing them make all my wishes come true. not just this one, but every little wish whether big or small…one by one… for almost nineteen years. it makes me feel like the most selfish , self-centered person ever in the entire world, or so i feel. one day, i’ll make you proud, InsyaAllah.

:’(